Damn, On the Mark Again

Tarot for today and it's only 4:30 in the morning...

"An even-keeled approach to romance can earn you extra points from someone you love. Even if you are engaged in a continuing disagreement, who is right or wrong matters less to you today. What is important, however, is how you can creatively turn a difficult situation into one where everyone is declared a winner. Your attitude is the key factor in making this happen."

Well, my attitude is always in question. Right now, I still feel like I've been kicked in the stomach (figuratively) and I'm not sure if that feeling will turn to malaise or sheer rage. Again, it really does depend on which Twin wants to rear her head at any given moment. Take it or leave it, call it pathology or bi-polar, or MPD, or being a woman, but that's my reality. Are we clear?

It will be another long day since I've been up since about 2:30 running anti-virus software so I don't have to unplug this fucking harddrive for a second time in as many months and carry it in to some techno-swammy, who will charge me over a C note to do something I know he learned in Computer Science 101. It will probably take the little genius about 5 minutes to do what I've been trying to do in 5 days, but one never realizes how critical the Internet is until it is gone. What's worse is when it's "just acting up" because you never know if it will be working or not when you go to log on. If it had just told me that it was "broken" on Tuesday, I wouldn't have wasted all this time between ComCast and trying to de-bug it/virus protect it myself. What a parallel to life sometimes.

Well, it's now going on sunrise, which I happen to enjoy if I'm either on the eastern coast or sitting on the correct side of a mountain. However, sitting on my porch, examining the trash the pigs left out last night and the dog shit in my yard (I don't have a dog), and the cat food that the raccoons scattered all over the porch, and drinking a cup of coffee (don't tell Doc), maybe I'll consider tarot and just take it minute by minute.